Get outta here

Dont know why time has emerged slowly upon dreams of a bed and pillow and nice warm blankets , clean sheets . Holy Christ .
Feelings of being cast into a whirlwind of emontional upheavels at this age is beyond my mind. Whos test is it anyways , mine or theres or both .
Was not always homeless , once out in right owned a home in Key West Florida for ten longgggggggggggg years next door to the spookiest people in the world . Ah memories of life on Grinnell St. My memory bank has no overdraft protection and is most times out of balance these days , these days of being homeless .
I wonder why I dont drink beer or wine or whiskey and just sit in the park pissing my pants . Is that what is in the near future . Shall I bath in some remote stinky public gas station bathroom ? Maybe . A good joint will alter my mind , give a hint of a grin , maybe .
Ive displaced myself at the whinning of a old friend whos dieing of cancer , taking care of her eldery mother of 87 . Come back to Delaware , live here with me and mom , have your own room you and your lil doggie are most welcome here . So I give up the cute lil cottage in Rockland Key and head north to Delaware to find the old friends old .
Betty most of the time two sheets in the wind on beer , full of anxiety or her fast approaching failing health as she watches one horror show aftet the next on her way big screen tv from her lazylady chair , room full of dog hair , cat hair., coughing , weezing , spitting into the lil spit can full of tissues and beer cans. NO classic conversation with her only repeats of complaints of what her mom cant do anylonger and how her mom OWES her for ALL she has done for her ... THE MONEY IS MINE RIGHTFULLY she explodes like a hot beer on a 100 degree day. Her gruff voice , gruff attitude towards her past spews out like puke each time she speaks of how bad her past treatment she recived ,going far back into her childhood of how they loved her sister more than her . Sister passed on about a year ago and I think it pissed Betty off that she died first . Impossible to have a conversation with her , only turns into whoa is me whoa is me whoa is me over and over again. She s meanly rude to all who live with her , has a zapper she freely uses on big ole german shepard whos just a psycho dog . In order to have use of a bedroom and bed and food I turn my head and take to pretending I dont hear or see her mistreatment of the poor animal .. Starla she is called . Only if I were not homeless so in need of a place to live , Starla im so sorry I can not protect you from her fast zapper hand .. dam ya know it hurts the animal . but not according to Bettybitch. What the hell can I do , even if I reported the abuse would anything here get done , I serioiusly dought it and would only put me out in the streets of Delaware fast . What a depressing place.
Thank God the doctor finally put Betty on oxegyn now she cant use her zapper when Starla barks . So when do we all blow up as she takes out her tube to walk into the kitchen to have a smoke , cough and spit into the kitchen trash can. Her mind is slipping fast into more anxiety attacks of dieing and her selfish attitude its all about her .. well bitch what about your dear old mom she is the one who needs help to survive what she must .
The old woman takes to her room unless its time to eat or feed the dog . Staying out of Bettys way as much as possible putting up with all the verbal abuse . Pretending whatever Betty does is fine with her as long as its not the dreaded NURSEING HOME threats again from the lil skinny nasty and mean daughter . Poor ole Delphia she dont bother no one , makes her own bed before she exits her little room each morning , being dressed before coming to the breakfast table only to hear the nasty commets of the daughter who is careless with hurtful words . Who wants to eat next to those comments . Two bites of oats , few sips of coffee and says shes dizzy and wants to lay down . Her only pleasure in life is her old dog , and the pinch of RedMan chewing tabacco shes had habit of since age 11.
Mom its that dam tabacco juice thats making you throw up so much , nothing else , explodes nasty Betty with a cigrette dangleing from her lips . You need to just quit they say to each other. Too late they say to each other , Mind your own business they say to each other. I pour a cup of espresso and shut my mind off to thier morning bickering . Moms lost her mind says crazy Betty. She needs to be in a nurseing home I cant take it anymore , too much drama as she sits down to her next horror flick on tv pops open her morning beer and plugs her nose with the oxegyn tube . I just cant win she whines out I just cant win.
Captain come on lets go out and see the horses , sit in the meadow and Ill play my flutes , pray and try and find some inner peace . Captain is always ready to go and see the beautiful palamino horses he thinks they are the most beautiful female Shih Tzus in the world , he in love with a horse . Poor lil dog needs a ladydog friend .
I knew from the first day here it would not last long but I would give it my best which is not super great , im not a workhorse can only do what I can do to help here .. but no matter how or what I do to help its being verbally ripped apart by a drunken old dieing woman whos jealous that I can still get around walking and breahting on my own.
I clean your home , cook meals for your mom and for you . is that the unspoken deal for the free room and board .. fair exchange for a place for me and my dog to live .. I just pitch in and get things done without being ask . Still that was not good enough to please BitchyBetty. She groans out that Mom can do things she just dont want to now that you are here she will use you just watch her , shes a user . O Betty I dont mind at all helping out doing things for your Mom or you ... ME I dont need help cough weeze n spit , twenty steps wears her out . Mom is just being lazy . She takes naps , she dont do nothing why is she taking naps all day and sleeping all night . I do my best to explain to Betty her mom is getting to that age that naps are just part of her day now is all ... NO she is just being lazy and wants attention , she will use you , I didnt bring you up here for that you know .. or to clean or cook .. pops another beer.
Betty , Creator has a plan its not up to us its His plan . O OO O dont start that religious bullshit with me she scorns , coughs n spits . All 95 pounds of her flexing and twitching about as she twist into yet a tighter knot or human bones and flesh . Ill tell you when im going to die she scoffs and I dont beliven in all that religious bullshit why would God let a baby die.
Ill tell you when im going to die its my plan not some Gods plan.
Chills run down my spine to hear anyone speak about God in such a maliced harsh way . Dont wish to even stand near her waiting on that flash of lightening to stike a God smack is what she needs maybe.
Well do i dust or do I not dust what will make the bitch happy today . What was I thinking , nothing makes Betty happy except when she thinks she is the boss of everyone here , give orders and jump high taking them .
Got here in July is now last of Oct. have a ticket to leave Nov 5 th. sure hate leaving Delphia to fend for herself but looks that is the only choice I now have . Betty hates me and screams at me to just leave . Why because I wont say what you want me to Betty and say your mom in nuts . She has more compassion and sense than you do is what I want to say but knowing it would only issue into yet another explosion of Bettywords with coughs weezes and spits why bother . Not worth my sanity to endure this anylonger .. Im leaving ok no problem Im leaving . Bitter Betty pops another beer wont eat until way late at night as not to loose that buzz because when she eats she has to go to sleep right after and she wants to buzz as long as she can pop pop pop is all I hear all day along with the googlish moans and creepy nosies from the sic fi channel .
Who is this woman she thinks she can zap a dog with a dam zapper that would knock a big man to his knees . What the world what am I watching this for I should just call and report her ass fast . Nope that would mean me and my doggie out the door fast and sleep where ? Nope sorry my dog friend I can not help you from the crazy wrath of her insanity. im so so so sorry . She thinks she can justify anything she does , wrong wrong wrong woman of bitter deeds . wrong.
Now who will take care of your ass I and my lil doggie are out of here going back to the Keys to no home at all but at least its warm most of the winter. Screw you bitter old dieing old friend screw you I dont like who you are what you are .. For your mom I would stay here and take care of her till her or mine dieing day shes no trouble to me has been a pleasure having dinner with a person , looking out a nice window onto the meadow where the horses live , lil red foxes sprint past , ole fat groundhog pops up his head takes a look about then scurrys down his burrow . The squirrles and birds feasting on the wild bird seeds , enjoying the birdbath all getting ready for the long cold dreay winter . Leaves to be raked , limbs to be picked up and hell no im not cleaning up all that dog shit out in the yard sorry folks not in my plan . Gross. Just not doing it .
Yes we even had conversations and we even laughed out loud old Delphia and I and that would just make bitter Betty fume. How dare her mom have laughter how dare I care to have a conversation with her mom . I after all dont have conversation with her . I tried really did but after the 21 times of hearing how bad everything always was for her how bad she was always treated by her mom and her dad and her sister and her ex husbands well one just looses interest and avoid people like that , that is all .
I had no idea she was so rude and fresh to her mom , to others , after all I had not seen these people in 44 years or so now . The offer to come and have a place to live forever was just too good to be true , dam ive been such a fool . Was this Gods plan , I not asking . God knows my heart and my deeds and all I want to do is be kind to folks . thats all just be kind do what I can to help and do the best I can. that was not good enough for bitter Betty.
We decided to give you everything we have Connie , that is what was told to me by them yet no paper ever shown to me that would stand up in courts .. Im not stupid ladies . Im not stupid , just homeless.